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07 May 2008 @ 03:33 pm

So I didn't end up taking the field tech job. It was a big let down at the time, but the best decision to make given the circumstances.

Since I had already quit my other job, I did the only thing I could do... I found another job. I am now in supplemental educational sales. Oh happy day. But it's cool, I'm actually not bad at it. AND I get to leave my job at work at the end of the day.

17 January 2008 @ 10:21 am
Still haven't heard from HR, but I'm not as worried as I once was, so that's to the good. 

It's a drak cold day here in Baltimore... One of those days I wish I was in the south again...that and Krewe de Vieux rides soon, like today or tomorrow night. Regardless, the weather is much more agreeable to me, I hate the cold.
Current Location: work
Current Mood: crankygrrrrrr
Current Music: Jimmy eat world- lucky denver mint
15 January 2008 @ 09:04 am
 I watched the season premier of Kyle XY last night and it was awesome. 

I also quit my job on Friday, only to find out on Monday there is a hold up in HR in regards to when I start at my new company. Apparently there are a few discrepancies I need to clear up. The fact that they are giving me a week from receipt of the letter outlining their questions gives me hope since the job was offered pending a background investigation. They investigated and now something appears not to line up. They haven't rescinded the offer, so that is indicative that it is a small matter that merely needs an explanation... at least that is what I hope. In my leaving of this current position, I was really honest about a lot of things, which was good for the organization, but lead to this position I currently hold being eliminated. In other words? I need to either clear up the HR concern at my new company or find a new job by Friday (my last day here).

I vote for clearing up the HR concern.
Current Location: work
Current Mood: exhaustedexhausted
Current Music: She is- The Fray
11 January 2008 @ 08:35 am
 I am so ready to leave this job I cannot even put it into words. So instead I will entertain myself with lyrics I haven't heard in waaaaay too long:

1-800 suicide -Gravediggaz

Suicide it's a suicide, nrother
Suicide it's a suicide...

Verse 1 (Fruitkwan/Gatekeeper)

So you wanna die, commit suicide ?
Dial 1-800-Cyanide line !
Far as life, yo it ain't worth it
Put a rope around your neck and jerk it.

The trick didn't work,
Your life was fucked up from the first day of birth
After watching Jackie Gleason walk into a precinct
Gun down the captain for no fucking reason.

And get some LSD or a drink from the bar
Get behind your wheel and crash the car
Like Desert Storm, got bombs for the war
Confront an alligator, let it eat you raw

Back to the function,
Riding the caboose to hell
Bziit! Touched the third rail.
You fucked up chicken,
Now you just got fried...
Cause it's a suicide


Verse 2 (Too Poetic/Grym Reaper)

Hey you little rich kid, what's your beef?
Come and tell the Grym Reaper all of your grief
You asked for a Benz and you only got a Jeep
Your pop's got endz, but yo he's mad cheap

Maybe you're a bastard child you think
Mom and dad are white and you're dark as ink
Maybe you're Sicilian with a tan
But you hate lasagna and the pizza man

Now you stand on the grave digga locked and
You're singing the blues about the rough life you've got
Not! You don't wanna live no more
I guess you're really ready for the grave yard tour

When you get home
Just seal up your windows and you doors
Turn your oven on high for about four hours
Light you a blunt, kiss your ass goodbye
You gassed yourself 'cause it's a suicide


INTERLUDE (Scott [the Moleman] Harding)

Yep. I've said it before and I'll say it again
Life moves pretty fast...
If you don't stop and look around
every once in a while, you could miss it

Verse 3 (Prince Rakeem/Ryzarector)

Six fucking devils stepped up playing brave God
Had the fucking nerve to try and enta my grave yard
I'm the Ryzarector, be my sacrafice
Commit suicide and I'll bring you back to life

The first was convinced
Stuck a water hose in his mouth at full blast
So his head can explode
Second said hmmmm that's good but I can top it
Put an ax up to his head and then he chopped it

Blood shot out in every direction
The rest didn't know what to do, I made suggestions
Put a slug in your mug, overdose on a drug
Wet your hair stick a knife in the plug

Or be like Richard Pryor set your balls on fire
Better yet go hang yourself with a barbed wire
Three and Four fell deep into spell and
Ran to the zoo, locked themselves in a lion's den

Number Five said it ain't worth being alive
Smoked a dust suede, mixed it with cynaide
The only one to escape was number Six
He went home, sat in the tub and slit his wrists

Yeah, more graves to dig, goodbye !
There's no need to cry... cause we all die
Current Mood: contemplativehehehehehe
10 January 2008 @ 04:11 pm
So I still haven't given my notice...why? Because HR hasn't gotten back to me yet. I know the investigator for my employment check is all finished and it looks good, but other than that I have no idea what we could be waiting for.

Current Location: work
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
09 January 2008 @ 09:40 am
 "She Is" -The Fray

Do not get me wrong I cannot wait for you to come home
For now you're not here and I'm not there, it's like we're on our own
To figure it out, consider how to find a place to stand
Instead of walking away and instead of nowhere to land

This is going to break me clean in two
This is going to bring me close to you

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes down
I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around
When it falls in place with you and I, we go from if to when
Your side and mine are both behind it's indication

This is going to bring me clarity
This'll take the heart right out of me

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

This is going to bring me to my knees
I just want to hold you close to me

She is everything I need that I never knew I wanted
She is everything I want that I never knew I needed

She is everything
(I needed)
She is everything
Current Location: work
Current Mood: hungryhungry
Current Music: she is- the fray
07 January 2008 @ 04:25 pm
I am leaving my organization. Disorganization, lack of proper compensation and a host of other bad things and eccentricities have left me thinking it's better to move on early than to stay and leave later anyway.

I got a new job in the IT department at a private university. They will be paying me more, and I will get a company laptop and cell phone. Pretty sweet deal really.
Current Location: work...
Current Mood: chippermoving on up...
07 January 2008 @ 11:46 am
Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Judging
by Joe Butt
Profile: ENFJ
Revision: 3.0
Date of Revision: 23 Feb 2005


ENFJs are the benevolent 'pedagogues' of humanity. They have tremendous charisma by which many are drawn into their nurturant tutelage and/or grand schemes. Many ENFJs have tremendous power to manipulate others with their phenomenal interpersonal skills and unique salesmanship. But it's usually not meant as manipulation -- ENFJs generally believe in their dreams, and see themselves as helpers and enablers, which they usually are.

ENFJs are global learners. They see the big picture. The ENFJs focus is expansive. Some can juggle an amazing number of responsibilities or projects simultaneously. Many ENFJs have tremendous entrepreneurial ability.

ENFJs are, by definition, Js, with whom we associate organization and decisiveness. But they don't resemble the SJs or even the NTJs in organization of the environment nor occasional recalcitrance. ENFJs are organized in the arena of interpersonal affairs. Their offices may or may not be cluttered, but their conclusions (reached through feelings) about people and motives are drawn much more quickly and are more resilient than those of their NFP counterparts.

ENFJs know and appreciate people. Like most NFs, (and Feelers in general), they are apt to neglect themselves and their own needs for the needs of others. They have thinner psychological boundaries than most, and are at risk for being hurt or even abused by less sensitive people. ENFJs often take on more of the burdens of others than they can bear.

TRADEMARK: "The first shall be last"
This refers to the open-door policy of ENFJs. One ENFJ colleague always welcomes me into his office regardless of his own circumstances. If another person comes to the door, he allows them to interrupt our conversation with their need. While discussing that need, the phone rings and he stops to answer it. Others drop in with a 'quick question.' I finally get up, go to my office and use the call waiting feature on the telephone. When he hangs up, I have his undivided attention!

Functional Analysis:

Extraverted Feeling
Extraverted Feeling rules the ENFJ's psyche. In the sway of this rational function, these folks are predisposed to closure in matters pertaining to people, and especially on behalf of their beloved. As extraverts, their contacts are wide ranging. Face-to-face relationships are intense, personable and warm, though they may be so infrequently achieved that intimate friendships are rare.

Introverted iNtuition

Like their INFJ cousins, ENFJs are blessed through introverted intuition with clarity of perception in the inner, unconscious world. Dominant Feeling prefers to find the silver lining in even the most beggarly perceptions of those in their expanding circle of friends and, of course, in themselves. In less balanced individuals, such mitigation of the unseemly eventually undermines the ENFJ's integrity and frequently their good name. In healthier individuals, deft use of this awareness of the inner needs and desires of others enables this astute type to win friends, influence people, and avoid compromising entanglements.
The dynamic nature of their intuition moves ENFJs from one project to another with the assurance that the next one will be perfect, or much more nearly so than the last. ENFJs are continually looking for newer and better solutions to benefit their extensive family, staff, or organization.

Extraverted Sensing
Sensing is extraverted. ENFJs can manage details, particularly those necessary to implement the prevailing vision. These data have, however, a magical flexible quality. Something to be bought can be had for a song; the same something is invaluable when it's time to sell. (We are not certain, but we suspect that such is the influence of the primary function.) This wavering of sensory perception is made possible by the weaker and less mature status with which the tertiary is endowed.

Introverted Thinking
Introverted Thinking is least apparent and most enigmatic in this type. In fact, it often appears only when summoned by Feeling. At times only in jest, but in earnest if need be, Thinking entertains as logical only those conclusions which support Feeling's values. Other scenarios can be shown invalid or at best significantly inferior. Such "Thinking in the service of Feeling" has the appearance of logic, but somehow it never quite adds up.

Introverted Thinking is frequently the focus of the spiritual quest of ENFJs. David's lengthiest psalm, 119, pays it homage. "Law," "precept," "commandment," "statute:" these essences of inner thinking are the mysteries of Deity for which this great Feeler's soul searched.

Famous ENFJs:
David, King of Israel
U.S. Presidents:
Abraham Lincoln
Ronald Reagan

William Cullen Bryant, poet
Abraham Maslow, psychologist and proponent of self-actualization
Ross Perot
Sean Connery
Elizabeth Dole
Francois Mitterand
Dick Van Dyke
Andy Griffith
James Garner
William Aramony, former president of United Way
Gene Hackman (Superman, Antz)
Dennis Hopper (Speed)
Brenda Vaccaro
Craig T. Nelson (Coach)
Diane Sawyer (Good Morning America)
Randy Quaid (Bye Bye, Love; Independence Day)
Tommy Lee Jones (The Fugitive)
Kirstie Alley ("Cheers," Look Who's Talking movies)
Michael Jordan, NBA basketball player
Johnny Depp (Pirates of the Caribbean)
Oprah Winfrey
Bob Saget America's Funniest Home Videos, Full House
Julia Louis-Dreyfus ("Seinfeld")
Ben Stiller (The Royal Tenenbaums)
Peyton Manning, Indianapolis Colts quarterback
Matthew McConaughey (The Wedding Planner)
Pete Sampras, Tennis Champion
Lauren Graham ("Gilmore Girls")
Ben Affleck (The Sum Of All Fears)
John Cusack (High Fidelity)

Fictional ENFJs:
Joe Hackett, Wings
07 January 2008 @ 09:21 am
So I reapplied the brand to try and make the top of the brand more even in regards to scarring with the rest of it. It hurt just as bad, if not worse, than the last application.

I have learned something form this experience: Paperclips do not conduct heat well enough to brand evenly.
To be honest, I had figured this from the start, but I couldn't find any other materials that would make a small enough brand.
I settled on a paperclip one day at work... I was sitting at my desk, looking around the office for metal objects that I could use when I started fooling around with a paper clip and I realized I could make the brand from that.

So I crafted the brand, made a handle and tried it out. It works, but it needs more than one application. This leads me to the conclusiont hat it doesn't work very well in regards to getting a good, even application and scarring.

I still have blistering, and soon I expect to see the callous form that I will need to peel to get it to scab over and scar better.
Current Location: work
Current Mood: creativehandbrand
So I diverted disaster... I paid that huge bill on time and now my mom can continue to live in her house, which is thankfully 300 miles of buffer zone away.

She extended her trip by one day, which was fine, until I realized that my 11 days of relaxation felt more like about 4.

It's about 19 out right now. so i'm layered up and contemplating quitting smoking those delicious cloves for the day. Alas, my habit is going to get the better of me in the end, so why not give in now?
Current Mood: contemplativeSmoking